alright, enough with being so evasive...

[deep breath]

I've kinda sorta maybe been, ahem, seeing someone. Yes, shocking, I know. Even more shocking is the fact that after several weeks a) I still like him, b) he still likes me (at least I assume so, considering he still talks to me), and c) I haven't managed to sabotage myself (yet). As always, I protect third party anonymity, so no identifying details will be divulged. But I will say this is someone who is really intelligent and I absolutely love talking to him and spending time with him (both in and out of the bedroom, thank you very much). For the first time in a long time, I don't feel like I'm settling or compromising on anything. This is definite progress.

But in spite of all this, I am still frightened to death that he's going to get tired of me and dump me on my sorry ass in the blink of an eye. I am trying really hard not to let this fear overtake me, yet I can't help but be guarded. I promise to keep you all posted, but at this point, I am simply trying to keep my cool.